its really weird not having myspace and facebook. im saving so much time wasting! good for me.

 been trying to clear my mind as much as possible at the moment. yesterday i went horseriding with my instructor michelle, who i totally love! she is amazing. yesterday she surpassed herself. she left me to tack up and mount whilst she went back to her house to get some fags (she always smokes when giving lessons)... i groomed, put the bridle on, then the saddle and realised she didnt leave me any stirrups. imounted anyway as i've ridden loads without stirrups (although not for years). anyway, michelle was gone at least 20 minutes so no idea what she was doing. i decided that there is obly so many times you can walk around a menarge and change reign without getting bored so did some trotting - sitting (obv) and rising, which is sooo difficult without stirrups but very rewarding! (my legs kill me today)... michelle came back and asked why i was sitting trotting and i tiold her because i had no stirrups, to which she gave a hge speach but obviosuly didnt hear me because she then asked where my stirrups were... she then attached a new set(fag in hand) and proceeded to give me a lesson watering the plants, smoking and drinking a lager. genius! the horse i rode is called Cala and myself and michelle both agreed that she is in foal which is ammmazing news! i could tell as her back end was stiff when riding and more risen and michelle can tell because she is her horse... i hope she is! i ended up jumping again which made me really happy as i used to looove this when i was younger... my favourute thing used to be cross country on my horse Sascha... and when i jumped Rosie over a 4 foot fence without falling off! anyways... yesteday on the horse was the first time i have cleared my head in god knows how long. gutted my instructor is going away for two weeks as that's pretty much me done for the summer!

stayed in last night and today did a spot of yoga.. was the first time i could actually hold positions, which is nice.

other than that... just booked to go back to uk next week to see my mum... need to make sure i am suppper strong and level headed for this or my head might just fall off!